Another Letter To You

I keep going to these websites, trying to find you over and over again, and they all have dead ends. Why do you have to have such a common name? I try to tell myself that line that I hear over and over again is true, if it was meant to be, you will come back. But I know that it is. I go to these army directories but do you know how many people have your same name, and how many profiles I have read and how many e-mails I have sent? I wonder what you are doing right now. Last I heard you were in germany, God that must be so cool for you. As long as I can remember you dreamed of going into the army but for the life of me I never understood why, but your dream came true. My life has went on. I have a baby boy now, he is everything to me. But there is not a single day that has went by in the last 3 yrs that I have not at least thought about you once, and that is a struggle I have been dealing with for a long time. Trying to forget you, I know that sounds harsh but I have been sick over this, into a kind of mild depression. And latly you come to me in my dreams like your teasing me and when I wake up you arent there and the realization of not knowing if you ever will be kills me. I wonder if you think of me, I mean I know you probably have, but do you think of me as much as I think of you. Do you lay in bed at night and wonder if the same star that you wished on was the one I wished on too? I want you to know that no matter what the future brings, you will always be my first love, you will always be my best freind and most of all no matter who comes and goes, you will always be my soul mate!!feeling kinda down, have been for awhile, if anyone has any ideas on how I can locate someone who is in the army free online please let me know, for my sanitys sake:( Written March 3rd, 2002 © on Mar 03 2002 02:11 PM PST, Chauna   18 • 0 • 1