Dear God,

I thought that you were the all-powerful healer and forgiver of everything. I thought that you were the father, the son, the everlasting. Help me understand then, why is it that I watch a woman suffer everyday from a pain that makes it almost unbearable to breath. Explain to me why she has to go through her days talking herself down from suicide because to her it is the only escape. Tell me what she did to deserve that, tell me how a human being is excpected to endure such misery, and you, the all-powerful healer, leave her to die a death that is so drawn out that I can no longer remember the days that she was well. Put all the karma beside, I don't want to hear that everything happens for a reason anymore, there is no logical reasoning for this womans pain. How can you let her suffer? Yes she will be missed, there will be tears, but we all know that it's coming and the longer that she s forced to live with this pain the longer everyone around her is in pain too. I just can't understand, she hasn't been the perfect woman, but she has shown her strength and commitment to you through years of prayer only asking to get better and yet now she is put on bed rest yet another time. Yet another time when she can't hold her grandkids and yet another time when she can't feel fresh air, yet another time when she can't sleep next to her husband. But I don't need to tell you that right, I mean you watch her go through that everyday, but tell me why you let it happen, you have the power to help her and I wait, wait for her to get better, and it doesn't how long will this go on? always,   ChaunaI am sorry if this pffends anyone but I am a little ticked off right now Written March 26th, 2002 © on Mar 26 2002 12:31 PM PST, Chauna   18 • 0 • 10