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"I'm lost... I need you now... Best time isn't it? Because you're not here. You're here, but you're gone. Now I can't remember, How you used to  be, until you left. Hearts are broken. I want you to fix..."

"I don't want to admit that I miss you... and that my life just isn't the same without you in it. But if you knew that... Then I'd be letting myself down. I'd feel so weak, so miserable. I do miss you...."

"-=//=- The criss-cross jagged lines, Are supposed to represent my life at the fullest. I pick it up, and put it  back down again... It's my choice, what will I choose? I press it against my skin. I se..."

"Cutting up my life because... I'm just not suitable for you. The fear of feeling too much, for someone who cares, far too little. I wish I didn't care. I wish I cold be more like you. Silent tears... ..."

"I see you with my own two eyes. Strangling yourself in the far fetched light. You search for truth, but lies find you. You demand simple answers. But get pointless questions in return. What has happen..."

"May I wish upon this shooting star? It'll be the best wish by far. Cluttered dreams I'll always keep. Keep this wish, as I rest asleep. Broken hearts, soon forgotten. Left in dream land, my soul is ro..."

"If I had a secret, would you want to know? Are you willing to hear the story, that was too deep to show? Do you want to hear the problems I never revealed? Or about this secret life that has been conc..."

"Trying to get over the fact that... I've wasted all my time. Just, standing here, waiting for you to come back. But I know you're gone forever. Yet why do I wait? Because I've told myself that you sti..."

"Can't stop this hurting. I'e been misled. I can't control it. What should I do? I feel so broken. I can't stop this. You control me. But what do I control? My heart ripping. My eyes are empty. I don't..."

"All you do is deny me, all you do is ignore what you see. All you do is walk away, with absolutely nothing to say. All you do is lie, all you do is make me cry. All you do is make me feel so bad, all ..."

"There are so many things, that you don't know about me. You turn around and say, "Farewell". Leaving me with these thoughts and feelings, that can't be dealt with alone. I stare at you, as you stare ..."

"Are you ignoring me? So you know that I can't go on without you? I know you want to see me suffer... As I want to see you try. Have I wasted all my time? Watching you avoid me? Seeing you talk to her,..."

"Look at these things you do to me... You make me, Cut, Cry, and whimper in sadness. Look at these things you make me say, I love you, I hate you, I don't need you anymore... Look at these things you ..."

"No matter how far you go... I can still see you. I can stil hear your voice. No matter how long you're gone... I'll still miss you, I'll still love you. Why aren't I the same without you? I feel so us..."

"You bring up my hopes... And shatter my dreams. How cruel can you be? What am I supposed to do from here? I don't know what to do, or where to go. Follow me get lost...Tuesday 12, Written March 3rd, ..."

"I hate waiting. Looking at this clock. Time hates me. I can't get over you. I don't think I even want to. You made me feel so alive. I hate goodbyes... Especially when you come back completely changed..."

"Life at its most beckoning point... What circumstances should I follow today? Curious about death... But you won't let me ponder anymore. It's too bad I've drifted this far away- Without you even atte..."

"The thorns of this rose, Are stabbing my heart, The jewels off this crown, Are falling apart. It's beating with strain, It's wings beating in the air, The arrow goes straight through, And suddenly it ..."

"I want you to feel the pain I'm feeling, Experience the things I'm experiencing, Have the tears drip down your face. FOR A CHANGE. Live the life I'm living, Step in the shoes I'm wearing, Have the kni..."

"im stuck in this world with no answers as i try to hide my secrets behind empty smiles the smiles that i try to paint on everyday but they just wear away if i told you whats been happening would you c..."

"Is there a substance inside us? That debates the way we feel? Does it figure out how much anger you control? Or when we're being real? Does it prove who we really are? Or do we already know? Does it c..."

"PLease don't forget me everytime you remember about what used to happen and about what used to be starting out slow and ending so fast the fear has been forgotten now the end is approaching, i can tel..."

"i dont mean to hurt you like i do ive been so selfish you should have told me i wonder what you do at night all alone, replaying all the harsh things ive ever done to you it makes me feel awful knowin..."

"Another boring day without you, I don't smile much without you here. Broken pieces left behind, pointless things I wish I would have said. Because now they mean so much more. Memories... coming back a..."

"I'm sorry I'm not like everyone else. I'm sorry I'm not who you had in mind. I'm sorry I can't do what you want... the right way. I'm sorry I don't dress the way you do. I'm sorry I don't do the thing..."

"You know what I think is funny? How you make fun of her for being suicidal and then you're friends. You know what's funny? How I laugh in your face because you're nothing but a hypocrite. You know wha..."

"What am I going to do, When the future comes my way? When the past is easily forgotten- What am I going to say? When all the friends have drifted, Where then will I go? When all the people run so far..."

"My dearest love, Hello, how are you? I'm doing well, ... although I feel like such a bad person. I just wanted to tell you that I was sorry for last night. I was thinking about it when I got offl..."

"I re-open the letter, Expecting to smell your scent. Now it's drifted... too far away. It doesn't smell how you used to smell. Now it just seems like paper, with a few wasted words. Morbid sentances f..."

"So ashamed. Perfect time, perfect place, perfect kiss. Wrong person. Why wasn't it you? I feel so dirty. I feel so wrong. Bad time, bad place, bad kiss. It wasn't you. Scrub my lips, from these dirty ..."

"Memories of misconseption, Temper takes over. I'm out-raged. I shiver in my own dismay of myself. I wonder where you are, How you are, What you're doing, If you're doing great without me there. Why is..."

"I just want you to love me for me... Not for who you think I am. I want you to try and understand me... Not just apologize and pretend things are okay. I just want you to hold me... Without having to ..."

"This silence makes me tremble, I can't live without your reassuring voice. It's just so bittersweet--- When all crashes down, what do I do? I miss you... You mean so much to me. If only I could prove ..."

"I feel so empty. So useless. So pointless. The distance between us is unbearable. My wounds are still open. I thought they were healed. So innocent. So beautiful. So sacred. And I ruined it... Written..."

"I JUST WANT TO BE PERFECT FOR YOU. CAN'T YOU SEE? ALL THAT I DO... IS FOR YOU. I TRY SO HARD AND YOU DON'T EVEN PAY ATTENTION. I STARE AT YOU AND YOU WALK RIGHT PAST. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO SAY TO SOME..."

"Into these pathetic eyes, you can see me crying. The disturbance gets to you, what are you going to do? So many times before you've walked away, and I'm long forgotten. So many times you've left my si..."

"Behind this smile, I'm fading away. Behind my weaknesses, I hope to be brave someday. Behind my toubles, you'll see my fear. Behind this fake, you'll see me disappear. Behind this laughter, you'll see..."

"Memories of the past chase me... Into an open field and I'm still lost. I chase myself and look for answers. I know it's a lie... I know what I've become. I can't lie to myself. I search this field fo..."

"I hate when you do that. When you smile at me and I'm in the worst mood. I hate when I tell you there's nothing wrong. Even though you know there is. I hate when there's a song on the radio, and you a..."

"Great person, Great life. Do you see the knife she uses to cut her wrist at night? Great body, Great smile. Do you see the tears that drip from her eyes? Great laugh, Great sense of humor. Do you see ..."

"Why do you always assume that I'm okay? You assume that this happy face is all I'm left with. Are you scared to look beyond... What you can't see? You hear me talk, joke, and laugh. And you just assum..."

"Am I changing you? Or bringing out the best I think there is in you? Am I changing you into something your not? What am I doing to you?I know it's short... just a thought more then a poem I guess... l..."

"What does forever feel like? I say,"I'll love you forever." But will you love me back, with all I love you with? I won't drift... I won't get over you... And I could never actually stop loving you. Yo..."

"I shouldn't have brought it up. Now I feel like I'm loosing you. What did I do? I ruined everything... Why do I always have to say those things? Now I've lost what I deeply love... Forever? I had drea..."

"Blinking away the rolling tears, can you avoid them? Look up and pretend they're going away. Yet they're still there... you can't ignore them. Try to look away, make sure no one sees you... You're so ..."

"Blinking away the rolling tears, can you avoid them? Look up and pretend they're going away. Yet they're still there... you can't ignore them. Try to look away, make sure no one sees you... You're so ..."

"I can't go on without your smiling face. It's just not the same, to know you left and I'm still  here. Who knows what to do now? This is the last time... Or that's what I said the time I began again. ..."

"did i ever tell you the way i really feel did i ever tell you i feel so unreal did i ever tell you that i always hide did i ever tell you what i really feel like inside did i ever tell you i watch the..."

"i see your face now everyday hoping you feel the exact same way like you did, once before this is a feeling, i cant ignore you're acting now, like you always did in your humor i silently hid healous o..."

"why do roses represent love if they always die why do people love eachother when these roses often cry why does this world spin does trauma make the world go round but i guess it will keep spinning no..."

"Remembering turns to forgetting hate turns to love doing goes to regretting push goes to shove truth turns to lies happy goes to sad smiles go to cries laughing turns to sad sunny goes to raining madn..."

"Tears of agony, lies of trust. Desperate people, and hearts so crushed. Wondering truths, confused feelings, approaching new things, experiencing new meanings. Different priorities, sour tears, a broa..."

"You left me with a broken heart, I guess I should have known. You left me with these broken dreams, I guess they should have shown. You left me with these quiet lies, I guess I should have cared, But ..."

"if you love me so much or atleast thats what you always say why cant you just tell me what did i do to make you so afraid of me? if you feel so much for me or atleast thats what you admit why cant you..."

"Letters I forgot to send, a broken heart you forgot to mend. A selfish mind left uncontrolled, a love once strong, just got so old. Letters from a happy past, a love I thought would actually last. You..."

"..this one goes out to.. she looks at her wrist devoting her scars and cuts to her most previous ..you.. how does it make you feel? does it make you want to run from her? well guess what? she's been r..."

"you tempt me to fall and follow close behind you you drag me around like a beat up doll you were so sincere i thought you meant well you hit me hard you pushed me down and you tempted me to just keep ..."

"a backward face looks so different in regular what is regular you roll your eyes at my stupidity and i just sit here with no movement unable to do or say anything slightly clever back to you to hurt y..."

"i'm freezing i shiver in my own self pity it makes me cold cold minded, cold hearted staring off into space lost track of words you said i'm sorry, what'd you say? i took it all for granted as i do ev..."

"im stuck in this dream filled with unfamiliar things that i've never seen my heart gets heavy my mind so unsteady someone wake me up please Written March 21st, 2002 © on Mar 29 2002 09:54 AM PST   18..."