Katrina Armour

"I was stabbing at my wrists with paper clips and toys Because the pain felt good throbbing through my brain And I was lonely writing songs about my face And they said that was a problem So they took ..."

"somewhere along the lines my wall came down and the barriers between me and the rest of the world vanished into thin air and i became a sobbing heap of flesh parallel to the rest of my world and my ma..."

"And in a dire situation I turn to you Although this red carpet's all my fault My delusionary world Came to crumble in my hands I can no longer hide There is no more Bible on my desk If Jesus came to ..."

"Scared and totally Immobile I Can't Stay in this room forever.  I get so Frightened of it all, Disillusioned as to what life should be.  I Read and Hear about drugs that do the same things. Caught in..."

"I looked at you in your full-frontal beauty Bloodshot eyes and all But only the monster stared back The monster that crawls through your veins Actually we've been talking a lot lately Your monster an..."

"Eyelids weighed down with dust He orders his 52nd daquiri And wonders about his treasure His gold, his silver, his flowers, his fortune The bartender tells him he's had enough He agrees whole-hearted..."

"This is an ode to the man who kneels constantly in an ocean of his own foliage His wrapping coming undone An orange coming out of a peel that only bobs on the surface This is for that foliage Exist..."

"Far away a massacre is taking placeOf the black cats and the poodlesA massacre of the hair that she spent a thousand hours on this morningAs if they only took hairAs if they only took away the pretty ..."

"oh priceless figure of sciencehow must i trust thy life to theethe art work of humanity's certain goal.the art work of humanity's consistent consistency.it all hurts.it all gives me such a headache.it..."

"the preist's morning sermon cuts through me likethe doorbell when i'vefallenasleep in my chair againthe remote control in my handmy fingers in my tangled hairthe vodkathat drove it all awaymom was awa..."

"do you stand there for nothing or are you waiting for love to come your way once again do you stand there wishing for a break to take your pay once again is there anything i can do to help you de..."

"hello ground control it's me again yes i'm still here are you? i'm cold inside and god has gone but i'm still here where are you? i love you so much how could you leave me here where you have been ..."

"she pledged to rule the world the second she got off the table her clothes were already back on her tummy already felt smaller she danced in little circles she laughed in different tongues until th..."

"federal arsonthat's what they called itwhen he blew our house awaykapoof!you said it would come back(mommy you lied, you lied)you said that brother was happy(mommy i learned he died, he died)you said ..."

"on a cold day in auschwitzwhere they branded us like cattlewhere they stole our pride like murderous pack-rats of satan himselfi lie in a cold damp showeri don't know who is left of usi don't know why..."

"And he says "Come with me We'll find somewhere nice and warm Our own island somewhere And we'll never be distressed again" Even as he says it I know he's thinking About hanging by his neck His soul dr..."

"The IV's in his pocketBut he'll pretend for nowThat his sun is not all black and wornThat his smiles are not non-existent frownsHe waits for the morphine to take its tollSo he can slip into candy cane..."

"This is not my shower. I no longer enjoy to shave. While the ghosts outside my window Stare at my naked body, Inside I rant and rave. I push up the roof and the birds fly in Into my deep, dark head. ..."

"My cigarettes go burning Into God's pocket. I believe in Him so He'll take my loose ends. I smoke like a chimney, Jesus. I swallow more pills than that patient, Christ. My messiah, I abide by your law..."

"They walk right out in the line of fireAnd say it's the way it's always beenThey complain of the way they liveAnd say it's the only way they canThey buy handguns and ammo and little sharp knivesAnd dr..."

"I hear this song that you sang so loud And I'm reminded that I want you. I want to lie down on the floor With you hovering over me. I no longer want to be in control. I want you to touch this body, An..."

"I finger the glass with the poison within. I look over at my king, His thoughts filled with sin. My royal lips can still taste his And the feeling under the crown is still inside my eyelids. The princ..."

"I sit here at the swap meet on the bench Outside the flower stand. My cigarette dangling from my mouth, I watch all the people buy as much as they can. It's all shit they don't need. Buddha incense li..."

"I picked you up You pushed me down And my heart hit the pavement But my self-esteem took the brunt of it And folded like Oragami Oragami thumbtacks Oragami thumbtacks in my brain ThRoB ..."

"She died inside her work-clothes Smelling faintly like stale beer Glass covering the counter where he'd been standing But she in her bed Covered in beautiful pink covers And Sara awaking peacefully fr..."

"Being away from you Is like missing a shoe And hopping around on one footI tried to go on with this poem, but I think these three lines were just meant to stand by themselves. Written August 21st, 20..."

"The pretty tableThe satin tableclothI remember them through my tearsAlwaysLurking behind some doorHe came with Gummi Bears.He shook the floorUntil the silver statuesNo longer stoodAnd neither did my s..."

"Sitting in black, cold metal on my fingers Vodka on my left, a body on my right. So much blood. Something is wrong. I don't know what is going on. My best friend. So much blood. Others cheer me on. I ..."

""Let he who is without sin cast the first stone" So they shot him Right between the eyes went their cylindrical steel ignorance And the lions ate "the rib" The Christians made big bonfires When they ..."

"When I look at you I think *I don't want my meal to be staring at me* The eyes go first In the absence of light I will continue on my way Until a war starts Or someone blows something else up Little..."

"I dreamed of wishing For prayers Last night, Asking God to Kill me Asking God to Hold me Asking God to Be real all over again There was no response Written September 3rd, 2001 © on Sep 03 2001 12:..."

"This poem will fall Title-first into arrays of cliches I love you When I'm around you I don't feel like pulling the trigger I love you You can have me any time Falling off I love you I can't think ..."

"I remember being ten No problems yet No breasts No blood No boys Nothing for another year Loving mom Loving dad Going to Disneyland for the first time Eating churros in front of the Haunted Mansion Ha..."

"I got inside the carThe windows plastered with yellowed Jesus stickersScreaming Christ's belated words to whomever cared enough to listen.I sank into the leather seats,The beautimus scent of scorching..."

"I washed a fingernailDown the faucet tonightAnd as soon as itDisappeared I thought'Stop!'Of course the plumbing paid no heed,Devouring completely the given piece of meAs I stood with my hands upon the..."

"'Welcome to my father's house' The neon letters said to us As our selfish, pagan car flew by. My expression at the time remained 100 degrees at the very least 2000 miles per hour To be or not to be T..."

"She is hisParasiteShe clings forDear lifeWith the Sullen hope ofA wrist Or maybe just A finger,Making sure he knows thatShe's not going AnywhereAlthoughHe knows that.We all do.We see him offerHis hear..."

"She scratches at the surface Not because she wants to see the scratches But because she really wants out of This grave And they planted flowers Where the beer bottles once were strewn Like lost gods..."

"I found you in your room All wadded up like bubble-gum And covered in the marks of His territory Your hands were maps plotted At silent, secret meetings Your cheeks were sad-stained He face-painted i..."

"Death comes in many forms   Sometimes out from underneath us   Sometimes from above   Sometimes simply from our bathroom mirrors   Where we tear at the thought   That we will never be able to dis..."

""America, where are your credentials?" -Anne Sexton I see this table cross-eyed From under and above Laughing at the occupants who are No less myself None but myself And her nausea None but myself A..."

"Would it make you sad to see   A butterfly in a jar   With no breathing holes   Or flying space? What if I stabbed a pin into its abdomen?   Would you call me cruel? Now consider a moment the coc..."

"1 I walk into the waiting room Quiet as a mouse With a hundred hypocrisies Staring at me from the coffee table In this room where I'm supposed to be safe With all the other awkward dwellers I am stil..."

"They say I'm crazy but what the fuck Do they know? I only know when the time is right That the time is right For the stirring of the flesh On the hook. The night shade drawn Black up Black down We'll..."

"The dark side of the tub Consumes my flesh While the light side fights for my sins. Which is the best? The dark side shall win While my toes protrude through the evil. But how evil is the other side o..."

"My sources tell me that you're not quite feeling like yourself anymore. They say your manner's changed completely, That your jeans are feeling empty; Empty For the first time. Don't worry. I don't be..."

"You sayI lie to myselfAnd you sayI'm a hypocrite behind closed doorsAnd you sayThat I intentionally paint it all blackAnd I sayPaint bleedsAnd you areMy parish priestAnd you areMy god in blue jeansAnd..."

"I moved my hands so you could see the snow behind.I showed you scars that had never seen the sun.Now I await a reaction from your un-telling face.Will you condemn me for insanityOr kiss my past away? ..."

"I see her sitting in the corner Looking like me a few years back. Bandages around her wrists, A notebook to her breast, Expression on her face that shrieks, "GET ME OUT OF HERE!" "Yes," I say.  "That'..."

"Will you credit me this last goodbye, This one last pain in your heart? Can I have the mind you've wasted on her, This one last moment, So I can caress it Then smash it on my knee? Sweetie, what have..."

"Suicide came upon me Sucking at me Like a newborn babe to a mother's breast (or do they have machines for that now?) And it made me pick up the pieces Of the Christ I had shattered. Maybe I was never..."

"No good ever came from dusting dishes Or following the path already worn Trendy shoes will only get you as far as your own front door Pretty porcelain shadows Staring from the set Pretty porcelain win..."

"I bottled up the businessman In his business suit I bottled up his world And put him on my dresser People asked me how I fit him in And I really don’t know But now I’ve got my very own Capitalist in ..."

"I left the fever of the blade For the edema of the pill And you stayed to roast Because you thought you weren’t done yet I tried but I can’t see with your eyes I tried but I can’t help you Unless you..."

"He lay prostrate before her, No longer aware of the kitchen floor, The democratic theory no longer availing, For he had been alone too long And goodness was still not an option. Salty tears rolled do..."

"Bleed me; get the poisons out. Don't let me cease to breathe, for my eyes still work just fine, as does my nose, and I don't want to sense me leaving. Forage my body for the working valves; don't let..."

"Roses are red... They still sway in the breeze Little girls in red dresses sit on the bed Little girls in red dresses sit there in threes They still sway in the breeze Confused fish swim in circles L..."

"Tired, worn-out phrases Are all that tumble from your Trembling lips anymore. ''Do you come here often?'' ''Do you have a smoke?'' Are these just waves of your adolescence Coming back to you with th..."

"Sunday afternoon, she already chokes on an acid dream. Would you like to run away with me? Would you like to run away? Her repetition makes me laugh as she holds tight to her mug of coffee like a fav..."

"When I was 12 God could never control me; When I was 13 I told him to fuck himself. At 14 I slowed my manic addiction; At 15 I exclaimed that I wanted to create utopia. I was done digging in my flesh ..."