Katrina Armour

"To do before it gets done: 1. Plant the seeds 2. Grow the garden 3. Freeze the roses 4. Thaw them out 5. Feed them to the children 6. Fix the door 7. Wire it shut 8. Burn it off 9. Heat the house 10...."

"Hello, God. How are you today? Would you like to hear me cry again? Would you like to see my pain? I am a fury. I am a sin. I am a waste. I bleed blue like all the other freaks. I know they love to ..."

"Do you remember when I hated snow? True, I still do But do you remember when I really used to hate it? When it used to remind me of suicide and the Hanson Christmas album (which was an obsession at..."

"Feed me again like a bird mouth-to-mouth, for I know not when they will starve me again.Does this need more to it or should I just leave it like it is? Written December 15th, 2001 © on Dec 15 2001 09..."

"the little Afghan girls cling to their skin like delicate lotus flowers waiting to bloom they wait... they wait... a penny's woth of needles... do we need something to pass the time? (Allah Allah ..."

"Muffled baby cries Quiet tapping of computer keys from the business suit next to me. He sits there alone. Well, if you don't count the man Inside of him or the 18 or so other passengers. TAP TAP TAP ..."

"I gave you this and that, and the doctors are so much better here. I love you more than ever, Now that we know you're just like me. I'll build you a castle and a life for when you come home and see t..."

"Eyes glazed over, Hair damp, Skin as white as paste, You tell me how you've screwed up this time. Over and over Convulsing against my chest, Same thing Everyday Programmed Into You. Sometimes You ha..."

"Fog It envelopes us like writer's block, drinking in the soft sounds of liquid love and the burn after the caress. It penetrates the flesh and moves into the heart holding us like our lovers never ..."

"I called her Bianca and pretended she was starving because I wanted to feed something. She was dressed in rags, mouth open in anticipation, fat legs and skinny smile. Bianca want a cracker? Ja, ja...."

"My mother hates New Year's because she says it reminds her of how she's wasted her life, and I'm sure my father would eat her alive if he had the money. Do you wonder like me sometimes why bands fir..."

"They still talk about it on endless nights when the moon is the only thing that's outside, its craters like eyeless sockets reminding them, ever reminding them, that once the worms infested like child..."

"I said I'm like a panic attack.  I'm sorry I'm not more like you. He said I could eat you raw right now, Katie.  I could spit out your bones and lick the plate, Katie.  Why can't you be perfect, Kati..."

"While we're on the subject of aneurysms, we might as well talk about you. How often does your brain bleed? How often do you see the spots? Do you expect the best of me too, or are you a cynic like a..."

"I'm sorry. I seem to have damaged myself again. I know you want me, but would you accept this void instead? I seem to have formatted my heart so that it reads like a pantoum. I seem to have forg..."

"I wander through your mind; your brain is haunted, liquified, but that's okay. You said you'd never betray me, you said you'd be there... you said you'd LISTEN when my wrist got that twitch. Yet I ..."

"I'm sorry I fell to my disease. You know, the rare form of cancer they call atheism. It's okay though, sir. I'm getting better though, sir. They've locked me up now, sir. I'm sure I'll believe soon, ..."

"Could you tell me what is wrong with me, try to understand why I grovel at your feet? Rooted deep within me, the love I have for you is a permanent reminder of how your smile takes my breath away.So m..."

"Everything After the flight   left a mark    on my skin.     Taking in the day      left me empty,       as if nothing superficial        had ever crossed my mind.              Did you disappear     ..."

"As if     I did not have skin, As if     I did not have blood, As if     I did not feel for you, As if     You did not know my heart as well           as you thought you did. Dear, you should ..."

"The ugly pieces float back to me in                               waves, Taunting me,             Haunting me; Killing me slowly,                   But surely. The teeth of my consience gnaw at my  ..."

"From the moment I saw you I knew you'd be the one to tell if I ever changed my name. I wanted to wring you through my fingers and hold your heart between my teeth. I wanted to unravel my nerves and la..."

"I sat there each week, holding life in the back of my mind, holding hope in the palm of my hand, and feeling accused by your daughters, who were perfect. I scribbled notes in Revelations, my mind som..."

"Suzy waits Mommy is beside herself She stares blankly and debates The canister sits upon the shelf Mommy is beside herself The windows must be closed The canister sits upon the shelf No one needs to ..."

"I've been spending time with Jonah lately, in his slime-slick, one room Bible story. I've been thinking a lot about who I'm not; Jonah thinks I'm crazy. We roasted marshamellows yesterday, we made o..."

"He buys pantyhose at 1/2 price because they look so unnatural. His hands are smooth as silk, his lips crimson perfection. Tell the truth; is he prettier than me? Oh little black dove, I see the way ..."

"Are you running in water, covered in tracks? Do you hear voices where there should be none? Psst... Hey. Hey you. Can you panic? 4 white walls You're in a box now Cut off mom Cut off dad They wer..."

"O fruit of this diversity, excuse the blood I cry like the Holy Virgin on her worn stone pedestal. I am scared, I am bare; I broke this bracelet and the beads flew. Tragically I am respected among y..."

"You say death kissed you, laced your lips with His cocaine tongue. (What better it is to taste you, my dear, to taste you indeed with my mind...) You say Christ giveth life, and Christ may taketh aw..."

"Madmen speak in tongues and I just wanted you to know that I think medication might be useful for you. You want to know if I see your ghosts and I tell you I just saw someone leave. Do you lie, Tige..."

"I hate myself for making sure the phone is plugged in. You said eight-ISH so naturally I've been here since six. If I had a rosary I'd be saying my Hail Mary's, though I've never been a Catholic and I..."

"Hello dear sir, glad to see you're awake. I hope you've had a nice sleep. Dear sir, I'm glad you've admitted your problem. I hope you can find your cure. I've found an elixir Doctor said it could m..."

"If I didn't wear this skin If I could just hold it in If I could ignore my debts If I hadn't made them pets... If I may...if I may... I would like to- If I could keep you in a jar If I didn't have t..."