brokenworthlessness

"the silver blade sears through the pale silk that is my wristscrimson blood cascades onto the frozen groundseeping into the emptinessbroken and lost i fall to my kneeslooking for escape from the painl..."

"falling nothing to say nothing to do nowhere left to run to nothing left no one left searching nothing left to search for nothing left to do nothing left to know nothing left to say nothing left to ..."

"flying high above the sky as i fall down to the ground flying off that cliff of mine into the pain I've found flying high above the blood above the blackened clouds i slowly fall once again onto the f..."

"frozen and dead, lying in the delicate powder of the freshly fallen snow blanketed with crystal tears and icy crimson blood these are our hopes our dreams that lie dead in the snow how they died only ..."

"America America we are loosing all we are we don't seem to care that we are at war we fight for peace blood for blood how right can that be? meaningless blood meaningless words meaningless war they ne..."

"oh god how can this be i am so worthless so alone so ungratefull i just want to die escape i never wanted to be like this i never thought i was special or maybe i did so deep in my mind that i couldn'..."

"I'm sorry I'm done too much for apology been too much of a bitch to reconcile i know what i did can never be changed i know who i am will never be good enough i used to love you i still do, in a way y..."

"this is the poem of a childthe mind of a child insidethis is the poem of the childthe child that's killing my mindthis is the poem of the girl in my heart screaming that this isn't truesaying that the..."

"Crafting with words the image i dream closing my crystal eyes as frozen tears fall from my face Talentless i cry as i fall from grace the grace i never had the words so carefully crafted have only bee..."

"I'm sorry but there is nothing left how can i write when i cannot feel how can i feel if i cannot write i've never been good at anything never done anything worthwhile i can't even write anymore no no..."

"Shut up stop telling me this go away you f-ing voices in my head stop telling me to die stop talking just shut up leave me alone i know i am all that you say but stop stop saying that  i'm not good en..."

"tell me why things had to be this way i need to know tell me please i'm lost please tell me where is home where is truth please tell me just let me know who i am i don't know tell me please tell me t..."

"i'm sitting here sreaming help me set me free make it go away make it go away oh god please help make it go away Written December 9th, 2001 © ..."

"nothing left not even ted only hate is left this emptiness inside that is all that is left that symbol of our love the teddy bear is gone i don't have anything to say for myself i don't i know that i..."

"1)    hope i want hope a way to live because now, i have nothing 2)    love i'm tired of hate i'm tired of lonliness i just want love 3)    acceptance i can't take this anymore i know i'm not worth mu..."

"As the grains of sand in the hourglass trickle down and the second hand on the clock slowly flows from number to number around and around and around i think about you i think about what we used to be ..."

"why should i care that the world is falling apart that no one gives a fuck anymore when people die just because someone else feels they are not good enough to live they are too good for that for life ..."

"Your hand caresses me softly making my skin tingle enticing me. I need you I wait impaitantly for your kiss your warm touch surrounds me enfolds me. take me away from this place like I know you can fo..."

"I tried. I tried to let you go. don't you understand? you hurt me. you deny it, but you did. I am not the only one who promised forever, you promised me you would always love me but you hate me. don..."

"I close my eyes and as the shooting star flies by me I wish. I wish for the times when we were happy. I wish for the times when you made me smile instead of making me cry. I cry too much anyway so ..."

"S C R E A M I N G all I hear is an echo I'm lost lost lost F A L L I N G I only hear an echo of the loud thud when my bleeding body hits the frozen ground B L E E D I N G Drip Drip Drip echoi..."

"You are my savior. you are the one who holds me close when I am crying. You are my savior. you are the one who kisses me goodnight when it's too dark to see. You are my savior. you are the one I l..."

"I'm not like this because I've had a hard life. It's not the best, but I know my life is heaven compared to so many others. I'm not like this beacause I don't apreaciate what I have I know I have al..."

"No one loves me. No one even reads these goddamned poems. No one cares what I think. No one loves me. I don't even love myself. How can others love me if I don't even love me? I'm lost. Lost withou..."

"I miss you. I love you so much, But I don't know what to think. I am so greatfull that you weren't here. You missed that horrid day by less than a month. I am so greatfull that you didn't see what ..."

"F L Y I N G high above the stars the sky F L Y I N G rising up wondering why F L Y I N G and as I rise I fall to pain. I fall into the endless rain. I realize I cannot ..."

"I said goodbye though you could not hear me. I said it. I told you I loved you though you couldn't comprehend. I told you. I kissed you that one last time, as your eyes fell dead to the world I know..."

"Jessica, I just want you to know, that no matter what, I love you. Sister, Dear look around. so many love you. that is the truth. ignore the rest. Sister, Dear I'm so sorry you have been so good to ..."

"Don't worry Grandma, we're okay. we miss you but we're alright. Don't worry Grandma, for you have been the candle in the night. Don't worry Grandma, don't cry for me nor for my mom; please don't cr..."

"can you hear me when I scream can you see me with your invisible eyes can you hear us cry for you can you hear us up there in heaven if there is a heaven can you see how lost we are without you..."

"floating up above the sky floating up above the pain floating in this endless state of lonliness floating in this dark lonley grey cloud of pain. Written December 18th, 2001 © on Dec 18 2001 12:..."

"my broken heart exposed and bleeding lies on the frozen ground broken as my shattered tears broken as my tortured soul. this worthlessness that I am takes away all control. knowing that I'm not enough..."

"You warm my soul. You are my best friend. You give me energy. You make me smile. You are my comfort when I cry. You calm me down after a hard day. Just like coffee. Vicks, I don't know what to say. Yo..."

"The golden flame burns violently. I watch it f   l i   c k   e r in the biting wind. It touches my frail skin. the spreading line of crimson covers my arms and scorches my heart as the flame care..."

"I remember when I was small we would come over and you would cook. I remember when I was a girl. I remember how you used to look. I remember when I used to stay overnight for days with you . I reme..."

"Turn it in the fire light. Shove in in my skin. Feel the pain in the velvet night. The searing pain from within. Trading pain for pain. At the end there is even more. Watching the blood fall like rain..."

"If not for you I would be dead. I hate you for that. I hate you. How could you deprive me of peace. Peace, finally, in death. If I wouldn't hurt you if I died I would be gone. Away from this pain. But..."

"I know I'm not much of a person a friend. I know I'm not much of anything. I am nothing. But I can't take how you criticize the little I am. I can't take how you hurt me. and say I have no reason ..."

"I don't miss you. I don't miss you. I don't I swear. I miss love. I miss us. but I don't miss you. I miss your hand on mine. I miss your friendship. but I don't miss you. I miss your smile. I miss ..."

"Hello? can you even see me? I am the one in the corner crying. But you are too preocupied with everyone else to see. to care. Hello? can you even hear me? I am the one on the floor screaming. But you..."

"I feel as if this blackened sky is closing in on me. It's attacking me. It's killing me. I feel as if all the hate all your hate is slicing away at my already shattered heart. I feel as if this l..."

"It t r i c k l e s through my veins. sending sharp needles of stinging pain through all of my body. Starting at my hip where the knife drags across my skin. already blanketed with fading scars..."

"The whole world around me is vanishing before my eyes. I cannot see my hands. I cannot see my eyes as I stare in the mirror. I don't have the energy to. Not to see. Not to look. All I love all I eve..."

"I'm bleeding. You don't see me. I'm bleeding. Can't you see it? Can't you see the crimson blood flowing from my veins onto the snow covered ground? Can't you? It's turning the snow red and you don't..."

"My heart. My soul. Shattered. Millions of fragments of the glass that is my soul the thin crystal that is my heart are lying on the floor. I fall onto them as you kill me slowly. The sharp shards em..."

"Glass. That is all I am. Invisable. Shattered. Glass. Shards of me are strewn across this blood covered floor. Shattered glass. Only glass. Written December 23rd, 2001 © on Dec 23 2001 12:59 PM P..."

"Please you're killing me Ever so softly Please you're killing me now. Please just kill me I'm already dying Please just kill me now. Please you're stopping. just don't stop yet Please just fini..."

"I touch you and you shatter. My glass hands shatter with you. You touch me and I hope your hands shatter. I hope they burn. I don't know what I did. I just know I deserved what you did to me. I st..."

"I'm dying. I don't need your help but I'm wasting away into oblivion. I'm dying. It's been four years and still I dwindle down to nothingness again. When will I feel right again. When can I live. ..."

"I'm sorry that I'm such a hastle That I'm such a pain. I know I'm not worth much. I'm tallentless and I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you cry. I never ment to let you die. I didn't mean to break you..."

""Hello", said I. "Hello, Megan. You've been a bad girl" "I know. I'm sorry. I don't mean to be such a bad person" "Well you are.You are stupid and selfish", The Devil replied. "I said I was sorry"..."

"Incomplete. I don't know what is gone. Something is missing. I don't know what it is. I just know I will never be whole again. The empty void inside my heart inside my soul grows with each tear. ..."

"I'm sitting in this lonley corner crying rocking back and forth singing mindless songs to myself. I'm cleaning the blood off the floor again scrubbing away at the blood I have spilt. My blood. I'm f..."

"Please, God I don't want much. I just want my friends to be happy the world to be happy. I just want to be sane again. I want the world to be like it was before. I never knew people could be so horr..."

"What is that sound I hear in the dark. Whose is that silver tear in the dark. Where is that lonley voice to accompany my tears. Can't it help me to escape my fears. Where is that warm hand on mine...."

"Burning flame inside my skin. Perfect pain. Perfect pain. Pain inside. Pain from within. Perfect pain. Perfect pain. On my hip where you can't see. Perfect pain. Perfect pain. Tears and blood i..."

"I don't deserve to be your friend. You are so much of a better person than I. Why do you think so much of me? I am nothing. You have always been there for me. Always. Through all this pain. Through al..."

"Thump. Thump. Thump. Like the beating of my heart. Thump. Thump. Thump. Thunder echoing through my head. Thump. Thump. Thump. The sound is killing me. Echoing. Driving me insane. Thump. ..."

"You took away my hope. You took away my dreams. You took away my breath. For now I have no hope. No dreams. I have no breath. My heart beats slowly. I try to inhale but your voice prevents me from ..."

"A new year is comming. A year of love New beginings Friendships Enemies Pain. Yes, another year of pain. Another year of seeing you sitting there in the corner all alone. Not being able to help..."