brokenworthlessness

"Crimson blade drags across my skin. Burning pain. From within. Crimson blade- you are my salvation. You are strength. You are love. You are what I deserve. D r i p  D r i p D r i p My blood f..."

"I know everything bad you say isn't about me. I'm selfish, but not selfish enough to see it that way. I know that I am stupid. More than I can imagine. I'm dumb, dumb enough to not know why you hat..."

"How could you think that I do this to hurt you? Do you think I want to be this way? Do you think that I want to be me? I don't want anything to do with me. How could you think that i make all this..."

"Let me die. I don't deserve to live... I never deserved to live. I don't deserve to die. I deserve nothing. I don't deserve my life. It's too good for me... GIve it to someone else... Give it ..."

"I wish I had something more to give for all I have done. I wish I had something more to give. You deserve more than I could ever give you. More than I can give all of you. I need you so much. I j..."

"Little child... listen to me. I speak of hope. I speak of peace. Listen- for I have much to say. Little child, crying on the floor curled up. Hiding your head in your hands. Listen as I tel..."

"I awoke early that morning. The alarm clock that sat on the dresser read only 3:00 AM. I dragged myself out of bed, slipped my silky robe over my shoulders, stepped into my fuzzy slippers, and headed ..."

"Slowly I am lowered down into the grave dug for me. The stone to be placed at my head reads so... "† Her Life was cut short by pain. May her memory be carried on. Dear Lord forgive her for what she h..."

"Wrap your steel wings around me. Hold me close in your embrace. Hold me close so I can see The gentle curve of your face. Oh, angel of pain Oh, angel of tears Just stop the rain- It's lasted f..."

"Slip your cold soft hands around my neck. Tighten it slowly. I command you. Not too fast, For I may not feel the pain. My dear angel, Just get it over with. But make it hurt. I deserve pain. I..."

"I don't know who to love anymore. I don't know who to hate. I don't know how to live anymore. I just sit here and wait... I wait for some small glimmer of hope in this place. I wait for some small shi..."

"I've cried so hard. I've cried so long. There are no more tears to cry. My eyes are red. My cheeks are raw. My tired tear ducts, dry. My lungs, they hurt. My throat it throbs. My blood flows from my..."

"Nothing. Fading away into the dark void of the world. Knowing I will always be nothing. Knowing I will never do enough. Knowing I will never make a differance. Falling away... One by one you a..."

"The Frail bones of my hand click methodically as I write. It is impossible to understand Emotions felt at night. No one knows or even cares who I am inside my mind. In this life that is never fair The..."

"I'm sorry. I didn't know that I was hurting you so much... I know I should have. But I didn't know. It's so hard to smile, even for you. I have no right to be sad. Just take a good look at the ..."

"Every smile. Every laugh. Is so precious. For I know One day You will be gone. You will die, And join her in heaven, If there is such a place. Every hug. Every time I say goodbye. I fear it may be t..."

"Smiling is the darkest path masking what is real. Smiling is the source of wrath, of hiding what you feel. So smile and pretend that everything's alright. But know that in the end the truth is what is..."

"There is so much pain in your eyes. So much hurt in your smile. There is comfort in the lies, so misleading and so vile. Your tears run red, crimson as the summer sun, with the blood that you have she..."

"True beauty is not found in roses by an old Victorian house. not in gold It is not rubies, sapphires, or even diamonds. For although it is precious as gold delicate as roses and everlasting as a dia..."

"Close my eyes to the chill of the world and of life. Bend my mind to the will of the pain and of the strife. Close my eyes and count to ten and hope it goes away. Sigh, and open them again to another..."

"Look inside your heart and soul. Look at the world around you. Ignore the brutal fight for control and know there is something that you can do to fight for peace. Without war or pain, Without bloodsh..."

"I didn't mean for it to be this way. Not that you cared. You just went on as normal as I said goodbye forever. I still want to be friends but I know it cannot happen after this. I meant to do it mysel..."

"Blow me up. Burn me. I hope that someday you can see what you've done. Incinerate my dying soul. Before you finally loose control of me, defeated. Touch me with that hatefull flame. Kill me before..."

"Don't tell me that I'm stupid. I just might believe you. You may be correct, but you don't have the right to say that to a child. Don't tell me that I don't know anything at all. I may be a child, b..."

"I don't know what to think, of myself and everyone else. God- I just can't stand you sometimes.... You never trusted me. None of you. How do you think it feels to be nothing? How do you think it fee..."

"You seem to think that I am less than human. That the words you say do not hurt me. If I did not know better I would think you enjoyed watching my tears fall from my bruised and bloody face. Maybe I d..."

"You have no clue who I am. You don't know what I need what I want what I love. You don't know anything about me. I can't take what you're doing to me. I can't take how you treat me like I'm a pile of ..."

"I'm already dying you might as well kill me. I'm already bleeding I might as well be dead. You are killing me slowly. Killing me softly. Just kill me already. I'm already hated. You might as well hate..."

"You tore out my heart and stepped on it. You ripped out my soul and shattered it. You stabbed me in the back but at least you had the curtousy to do it where I couldn't see. You, on the other hand sta..."

"You try so hard to make me in pain. But most of my pain is self-inflicted. You hurt me so much, You wounded my soul, and finally you have won. You have broken me. I lie here shattered and broken and b..."

"Mirror mirror of metalic glass. Why must you show me that ugly ass. Those eyes so empty of peace or grace. Why must you show me this ugly face. This pale skin so frail and so bare. Why must you show m..."

"Crystal tears stream down your face running your mascara. Runing through your melting foundation and washing away your make-up. I never knew you had feelings. I always thought you were fake plastic s..."

"Wrap your arms around me. So warm and so strong. I can't take this anymore. I need you. Touch me softly and pray to the lord to forgive you for what you are about to do to me. Soft moans escape my li..."

"Peace. Truth. Love. Trust. War. Lies. Hate. Lust. Death follows a life forged in strife. Sun after rain. Drenching pain. Rest from this hurt deep inside the Earth when death offers It's sweet escape...."

"I look deep into my mind, into my dying soul, and I find nothing poetic. Isn't that pathetic? I can't even find beauty in my poems. I search for something that is not there, for comfort in my words...."

"Stop telling me to wake up from this ignorance I have come to love. Just let me sleep. Stop telling me that I can't rest... It's my only escape- you must understand that. You say that I don't try, bu..."

"You do this just for fun. You want these goddamned people to like you. Isn't that what we all want, Somewhere deep inside where we no longer control what we think? Damn you for wanting that. Damn you ..."

"I know it's selfish to want something so self-serving as comfort. For wanting your arm around me your hand on me your strength suporting me. Your soft lips brushing against my cheek, and your fingers..."

"Tangle your fingers in my hair, Put your strong hands on my skin. Make me feel as if the whole world is just an illusion, and you, the only reality. Wrap me in your arms and hold me close to you. Lay ..."

"My skin tingles, my heart ignites, my soul sings with longing. My eyes sparkle, my tears fall, my lips quiver with longing. I want your hands on me, your intense eyes staring into my own. I need your ..."

"The sweet aroma of you, and of burning candles, surrounds me. The silky feel of your skin, and of these silk sheets I wrap myself in, set aflame my desire. I am in paradise Waking up next to you. Your..."

"I open my eyes, and your sweet smile stares down at me. Your hands caress me, and your lips kiss me. Sweet whispers of love float in the air. As you lie next to me, under the soft silk sheets warmed b..."

"Hold me up. My legs are shaking. I can bearly breathe. I'm falling, to the cold and frozen ground. My trembeling form crumples to the floor. Catch me and hold me up. Wrap your arms around my waist and..."

"Lying down on warm soft sheets. Turning off the news, which speaks of war and hate and pain. Listening to the struggled beat of my cold and bleeding heart. Reading of a perfect world, a place that's ..."

"Please don't leave me alone, I'm tired of this solitude. I've been alone so long, I can't take it anymore. I can't write, I can't think, I can't love, I can't hate. All I can do is long for you, and s..."

"Forever in your caress. In your warm, forgiving arms. I want you to undress me, please forgive these thoughts... I can't be innocent anymore. I tired of morals, at least these- I will always keep the ..."

"I reach my trembling hand toward your gentle face. I want you to hold me. I want you to trace the curve of my waist with your hands. Slowly, so slowly you grow farther away. In the back of my mind, I..."

"Life is composed of many truths... Love, Hate, Fear, Lust. But the truth and the strength in all these things are the tears and the pain and the blood. To bleed is to know that you are alive. To bleed..."

"You are everything to me. My laugh. My tears. My smile. You are what makes my life worth living. You are few, but mean so much. Your smiles brighten the room and my heart. Your words calm the storm i..."

"I want to be good for you. I would give anything for you to smile just because you see my face. I wish I could make you long for me the way I long for you. For you to want me so bad that it hurts insi..."

"As the sky falls down And your dreams shatter like glass I'll be there to hold up the sky and glue together your dreams. Don't worry, it will be alright. As your hopes fall apart And your soul grows ..."

"I'm dying... Deep inside where no one can see, I'm falling. The world around me crumbles, shattering like glass, and I can't glue it back together. It melts and it cries, and as it dies, I die with it..."

"Crystal tears shatter as they roll off my face; Crimson blood seeps into the ground; My screams echo off the walls; Yet I have no reason to cry. I feel worthless and selfish, and although I am, I have..."

"Push me down onto the bed, hold me in your arms. Touch me with those strong warm hands. Keep me safe from harm . Don't let me be alone. I want your hands everywhere on me, your lips on my skin. You d..."

"Your silhouette looms above me. Your gentle smile caresses my heart, as your hands caress my skin. They glide to the small of my back, and I am pulled into your arms. Your lips move from my mouth and ..."

"Back and forth, Back and forth, Back and forth. Rocking in my arms. Your tears soak my shirt, and your screams ring in my ears. Holding you close to my cold and shattered heart. I can't make you smile..."

"Your trembling hand reaches up out of this river of blood. Dripping with my tears, drenched in your own blood. Your wings caked in crimson, Your halo turned to rust, Your love turned to hunger, Your h..."

"Lie your tired head on sholders that will not shatter. Fall into these arms that will not break apart. Take this trembeling hand that will guide and never falter. It will gently lead the way and you w..."

"Fingers that will never grace my skin, An arm that will never rest on my shoulders, Caring eyes that will only ever look at me in friendship. I would give anything, just to be loved by you, To be touc..."

"Crimson tears dripping onto tainted glass; painting it with blood, smearing it with tears. Lighted images dancing across the silver truth the glass povides; consuming it with horror, corupting it wit..."