considerately killing time

"Your soul's been saved through ritual Quite possibly the only way, You've made a promise to better Though the pact was broke, and you're the same You violate the minds of anyone who's shown you love ..."

"The time is drawing near, in moments I'll be able to sit comfortably, In the reassuring silence that holds me like a warm blanket of euphoria. Knowing, That in a matter of minutes, I'll be free of thi..."

"when consequences aggravate your simple state of mindwhen the walls turn grey, the floor grows cold your running out of time...don't hold your breath don't count on mewhen everything is said and doney..."

"Heaven sent bodies Expose bloated bellies And another jaded boy Has randomly become another fading memory I turn the page... Written August 1st, 1999 © on Oct 14 2001 08:59 AM PST   0 • 9"

"It's a long road to nowhereAnd my feet are getting tiredI've walked alone for quite some timeAnd have travelled many milesMy path has been disruptedA few times I've lost the wayThough, with the love I..."

"I am drowning in a sea of melancholy, But it has not extinguished The marmalade flame, That burns In my heart, forever, for you. Written October 14th, 2001 © on Oct 14 2001 09:08 AM PST   0 • 8"

"After painting our New lives togetherYou've selfishly washed Your hands cleanOf all that has been done.I am now left alone,In this room,To taste the cold of loneliness./99, Written October 14th, 2001..."

"I love to love you,Hate to need you,Want to hate you,Need to feel you,Sometimes I just want to kill you, But... I love to taste you.99, Written October 14th, 2001 © on Oct 14 2001 09:21 AM PST   0 ..."

"A picture paints a thousand words, But I've been told they lie A happy fool is dancing circles, Beneath a violet sky A velvet smile adorns my face, And it belongs to you You used to say you love me,..."

"Be certain to forget about the : ~Love gone wrong ~Mistakes you've made ~Rotten things you've had to say ~Silly drunken one night stands ~Tumor ? nope just swollen glands Remember that : ~At least ..."

"Your heart beats black without my hate I taste your scent of hopeless waste Your skin grows cold Without the touch Of careless girls who care too much They break you with their flesh and breath And k..."

"Each time you spew your ugly words in my direction, like a missile on a mission to wound my softened heart, I sit silently, patiently, passively, waiting for the right moment to lash back at you...."

"My sanity is falling like A painful hail all around me Reality is slipping through The clumsy hands of time ..."

"as morning rises with the sunand all is said but nothings donei wake up to find all love is lostso why are you not gone?will you sing softly in my earall the songs I've longed to heari don't mind if t..."

"A tangled mass of dirty hair Hides a sunken, tired faceDark circles accent bloodshot eyesI've taken comfort in this quiet placeIt's later than an hour agoI'm not comfortable inside my skinI'll stop pi..."

"We sat in a comfortable silence,On a sidewalk in the rain On a crowded street near St. Paul.We took pleasure in sharing cigarettes and time,Observing awkward people in a hurry passing by...I couldn't ..."

"A warm heart with strong desires, Lips that'd set my soul on fire,Eyes that make the sea look weakAnd eloquence when he does speakCreativity would be a mustOr he would not deserve my lustA complex man..."

"I'm so afraidEvery morning I wake up looking forward to you, I wait, almost impatiently, To know every word, Every thought that you produce, Regardless of how trivial those words, Or how briefly they'..."

"Whoring the ideals of political antagonism in a mounting guerilla warfare of hatred American government lovingly fondle their dicks (in the name of patriotism) at the thought of using economic we..."

"Oh, to be in an 80's Hair Rock bandWith spandex sporting loyal fansFoot high hair would be so glamI'd wear fish net stockings on my handsAnd to make myself look even betterI'd wear tight, glossy, pate..."

"I'm going to hump a British boy He'll be my sexy English toy In a drunken state I'll use him Then my number I'll refuse him Who cares about the double deckers All I want's an English pecker Cuz to ri..."

"Mother will you shave my headMy lips are crackedAnd nerves worn thinThe needle spinsWithout a threadI scream you're unaffected I saw you dancing in a dreamTattoos bleedingThoughts obsceneThings aren't..."

"A constant struggle Freedom escapes me as quickly as The last breath of a dying soldier I'm trapped I can't feel my legs Fear sets in Is this what it's like? Is this how it's supposed to feel? It's ..."

"Regret, like bile, slowly rises What the fuck have you gone and done She's tied you up with broken rope And you're only twenty one A hostage to your own creation You think about what could've been She..."

"Just when you think your world is perfect You find someone to make it better And he dances wildly to the music while You watch him from the couch No one's ever made you laugh Quite like this quiet ..."

"Is this race worth finishing when defeat is inevitable? Why do I try to fool myself by running in victory's general direction, Even though I know that, soon enough, victory will be just out of my ..."

"In nervous streets and shabby schools death is anxiously awaited Cheap radios pour images of despair and denial of the innocent blood awaiting unfair trials You smack your lips at their tarnishin..."

"Steaming vapours of elegancePurify my muddled soul, withImages of blossoms, drifting slowlyBehind closed eyes with every Precious olfactory gift.Earthen coloured liquid withYour gentle scent, I've bec..."

"Oh Caf, Dear Caf,So good for a laugh,You brighten the gloomiest day!And when I'd sleep overYou'd act like Ol' RoverAnd on the floor you would stay!Seven years beforeYou used to knock on my doorAnd at ..."

"Completely Me A different face My thoughts revealed A different name You love the way I make you laugh You're unaware Of who I am We talk all night Until we sleep Our conversations Running deep You d..."

"You scream in my face Telling of your regrets Mostly of the day I was born I've endured your beatings Swallowed your insults Watched as you hospitalized The only mother I have Only to be left in your..."

"I was once so innocent and great in your eyes But now I'm hated because of your lies You talk about stuff that didn't even go on And now people whisper like I've done something wrong I know what you s..."

"Covered In a blanket Of piss and ash Swollen eyes Struggle to see A future in a Broken glass That's been shatterd on A warped floor of Hypocricy Inspired by The sophistication Of traditional ..."

"Voice of an angel Tattooed in my head So full of meaning. Every note sang Causes my heart to cry Out in utter joy. Never have I heard A more beautiful soul Disguised in a melody, Escape throu..."

"Through times of pleasure and times of pain You've been there for me just the same. There's nothing that I wouldn't do To show you that I appreciate you. I really don't have much to offer So read the..."

"He's not the kind of guy you've Seen a thousand times before He knows he's somethin' different And he'll make you feel adored He's got a body like Adonis And an urgency controlled With encyclopedic k..."

"Longing for a feeling That I've never felt before A fire that I need to feel, A pain I can't ignore There's promise in An untouched hand that I can't stop reaching for He lives inside my rainy dre..."

"Illustrious black hair And soulful verdant eyes That shine through and surround Warm, fragrant, soft ivory skin. Small cupped breasts penetrate A delicate veil of confidence Coaxing you into Splen..."

"If there were ever One thing I Truly enjoyed, It would be watching A boy concentrate. The way his eyes Shift and squint, his Breath stands still, Lips partially open, Sometimes closing, To indicate..."

"You look to the past, And it seems like your Life has been burning away Like someone's been sucking On you like a cigarette. Nothing you've done makes any sense. You've fought for causes that were l..."

""Wake up sunshine!! It's a 'beauiful' day!!" As I open my eyes with a smile, Two little hands are cupping my face, She's been waiting for this for a while. I get out of my bed and we head down the st..."

"I spend the days urging a slower pace, Collecting pieces of his mind, Hiding in the contours of his imagination. A bright red path leads to his eyes, Dark, and full of meaning, like his thoughts, His ..."

"The bastard stench of milky thighs, spread for twenty dollars A rancid smell of cigarettes lingers from the men you've fondled A greasy film is left upon a golden pole that you've molested There's no ..."

"I heard one day that they said you got so high You ate up a chicken head and it was still alive I had some friends they're swingin it's so dull tonight Someday you're gonna get so messed up, you'll e..."

"Oh, I love punk rocker's They just blow my mind. Most don't smell too perdy But damn, they look fine. Some sport crazy mohawks, Some look like your dad, But regardless of style Their attitude's bad. ..."

"I'v been up for three days now, I've not gone to school, I've not done anything, And I act like a fool. The imprint of my ass On my computer chair I've not gotten a bath, I've not brushed my hair..."

"Black isn't so pretty While it runs in your blood. Asphyxia taunting you, screaming,Inviting the fear that you've fought So long to supress, into the only comfort you know.It's in you. You're too..."

"Set the temperature to rush And release the heat of complications Intravenous pupply love Hangs like a light to ease your bleeding Forty proof immunity has dried your swollen veins, Where the pulse..."

"One night a dreadful thought occured to me That caused my heart to cry. My man asked me what the matter was And this was my reply: "My dear I've loved you for some time But soon you will be gone. I'..."