Neurosine

"Time wrestles thoughts, trestles infinity, above opens doors, used to remind me, with pictures, dyslexic snapshots, glimpse of serenity... fluffy oblivious divinity, lost in another soul, didn't know,..."

"Light to dark obfuscates all with disguise. Configurations that blow through your mind. Neanderthals or stalagtites aren't so blind, that they are not in the moment... completely. We fall a second b..."

"A kindness untouched, by the harshness in life; Good cheer and charity follow in love. Aware of the oneness of this world, Love in his eyes. That soft voice spoke fondly of people. His Kindred. His lo..."

"Grounded, okay and normal, community, and love. No, I'm just this awkward weirdo, home lost long ago, if I'll find one again, I don't know, Living lonely. Relieved of the delusion, but heavy with appr..."

"Incidental flowers sprout sharp-edged and laughing, archaic devices, esoterically standing, buttons of flesh, armatures intermeshed, colors flashing, alone in the night. Written February 15th, 2002 © ..."

"Insensate, but needing, self-sufficient but bleeding. Inchoate; some strange nether space, look in my eyes, do I have my face? Take it all away. Saturated soul of nothingness, pride and shame, bereft..."

"Stopped dead in emotion, paralyzed in a blank fascination, can not explain it to you, surrealistic pain and happiness, in the same pot of wisdom, stirred with the finger of my soul, ageless, older tha..."

"Nothing flows, nothing goes, anywhere, but away, fading into the distance, before capture is possible. Passing onto the ether, from which everything came, where it's all the same, playing games, parti..."

"I can convince myself of anything, in time, reason is insidious, truth is sublime. I can open up a precipiece, stare down deep inside, see the images coalesce, begin to slowly define. The heart believ..."

"Neurotic, subconsciously, envision them hating, staring directly at me. Psychotic, I can't fly, or sense the fine lines, crossing, definitions of someone elses mind. Quixotic, I mark down, Naively, ..."

"Avoidance, annoyance, disturbance, denial. Nobody likes to put themselves on trial. We won't admit the greater things, that keep us from becoming. We tie ourselves with the finest strings, our subcons..."

"If I sampled reality a million times a second, nothing could escape me, if i lied and said you're a brilliant mind, would you let your soul pervade me? If time weren't a constant, and no one was consc..."

"Couldn't say. Doesn't matter anyway. As long as I'm happy, or something like unconcerned, unburned, unturned, into an asshole. Aligned with everything, can say nothing about it, unexplainable anyway, ..."

"Archaic in matter, inconsistent splatters, on an open window sill, calls to me still, like magnetism, multitudes of stars in the sky, passing by, unconcerned with my wonder. Esoteric notions passing b..."

"Broken, unmendable, really fucked up, lost in the chasm, it just doesn't matter, but I feel it still, constantly. How can nothing be so substantial? It pours into my thoughts from deep down below, con..."

"I hate me, I hate me, I want to negate me, Disdain and berate me, distend and deflate me, i rate me, below, i pull me in tow, suffer me to believe anything, that I know. I'm so lame, and a shame, a sa..."

"Dance away into nothingness... trifle strange, notions, only, guiding your way. Following the pretty colors and lights. So angry when they hit you, so mad when they shit in your face, so unaware of th..."

"I can jerk off all that I want, yet refuse to converse with my hand. It’s a strange enough relationship… But Uncomplicated, a matter of hormones and glands. My hand lacks valor, And sophistication, I..."

"I’m arraigned, and I’m so innocent, I don’t know the rules of this game. But don’t think I’m playing the victim. It’s not all… It’s not all the same. Children of the universe, The differences flow bet..."

"The deluded, so close to the truth, closer than the norm, take a step in the wrong direction. Is is conspiracy, is it mockery, or is it a lie? Is it the movies? Almost they understand the lies, they a..."

"I walk in your shadow, I shout out your name, but you don't give a fuck, and it's just the same thing, all alone, on a phone, talking to no one who is listening, sweat is glistening, though I know how..."

"God told me he loved me, then asked me about double data rate memory. What does he want, what the fuck does he want with me? Written March 14th, 2002 © on Mar 14 2002 09:00 AM PST, Neurosine    0 • ..."

"Would you pull this mucus away? It's been there for days and days, it coats my intentions and burns as I try to say, something I can't ascertain, or attain. Call it seasonal annual depression, call it..."

"Douse me with infinity, wander through my lies, eat me, taste divinity, samples for the kind. I'm just a book, so open me, Read me, take your time. Another nook in which to peek, inside of your own mi..."

"Slack and slowly wandering away, I miss my dog, I miss my wife, bitches both, misfit goth and red haired lab-chow dog, whom do i miss the most? One's still pretty good to me, the others love was more ..."

"Their sayings flowed away, down the blotter filled breeze way, needling those with heightened perceptions, to administer their own wisdom, and save their soul for the winter ahead. Written March 21st,..."

"Premeditated lives, peeling the steadfast, but penetrable walls, only to discover, yet another...and another. When does it end? Never. Didn't even begin, yet here we are, some way, within, and one an..."

"Victimize me, opened them, watched them, carry me away across tumultuous currents, into the unknown, and back to myself again. Crying Bleeding, thin blood, thin skin. My ancestors quarrel within me, s..."

"stark blaNK BLACK, heArt Attack, they won't give it up, I can't take it back, braining birdz, stuffing their sacks, ill tempered undulations, broke me good. as they should.... their job is done, send ..."

"Where did the universe place my underwear? God...I don't know. I don't thing it cared. It may have placed them any place, Or maybe everywhere. The fact is I was only using them anyhow, I never cared f..."

"Light strands of life trickle through tiny fingers, incapable of holding the slightest truth, no care for quantity, or sense of dimension. Breath by breath, thoughtless touch, periodic feeding. Some G..."

"Light strands of life trickle through tiny fingers, incapable of holding the slightest truth, no care for quantity, or sense of dimension. Breath by breath, thoughtless touch, periodic feeding. Some G..."

"Indebted to definably nothing, obscenely profound laughter, continues to escape me. I sip at the occasional, Pools; that go down to infinity. Nerd extraordinaire. I pretend I have no time for my cares..."

"It always opens my eyes, and then there's nothing, no lies. I fall down, out of something, and there's no comfort there. It makes me scared, it makes me care. It makes me partially aware, that we're f..."

"I preach, teach, and define, existentialism. What a huge fucking jive, another yammering hippocrite. I analyze, reason, no matter how refined, I become even more didactic, pointing perfectly to the re..."

"My eyes close in terror every moment I lie, awake for the season, with hollowing eyes, waiting for you, you should apologize, for the ever present longing, lost anguish I shed over you. I take a pict..."

"Arcane polymorphic, psychotropic, myopic, and so satisfied. Just give me the god damned fucking heroine, just give me my god, and my money, the lie, isn't of my creation. I just use it to dull the sha..."

""I'll love you forever, I'll love you whatever, you say or you do to me, I'll love you when you're hearts on fire, I'll love you when it's diseased." "Yes, that's nice, Oh, and I know you mean it, bu..."

"Everyone has various strains, Of emotional disease. We mature in many different ways, travel on, travel from, Our various eigenstates. I don’t know why we insist to equate, The person we woke up as ye..."

"Indefinite laughter, down long shallow halls, enigmatic remasters, of nothing at all, seize the mind, clench the heart with emotion. We grasp towards that sense of wonder, a longing undefined. Unforfi..."

"Shorn of brilliant intuitions, wandering in constant indecision. My values are so much immediate delusion, I start and I finish in states of confusion. Did I have to wonder why? was it so urgent, that..."

"Laughing at the skinny legs and dangling balls of reality, gray haired fundamentalist, rubbing up against the machine, pretending to be a part of it's intricate precise beauty, totally fucking too gon..."

"the perplexing genius, one hundred and sixty eye q, can't tell you what day he lost his retainer, can't properly tie his shoes. in order he thrives in chaos he lives, he can't think of anything he wou..."

"Further forever, further whatever, pretended endeavor, whatever, we taste it, or just simply fake it..., our mouths speak of rating, energy wasted hating, berating our distant reflection, only delayi..."

"Too lovely and pale for this punishment, undeserving the exquisite decline, into poignant meaningless nothing, everything screams out its pleasure, tasting every repetative, application of pain.   Ag..."

"Dread is never the answer, hope is a faith and denial, abstraction, distraction, reaction to these straw men, leave us guilty without trial. Relying on nothing, sentimental drivel, past disgust, in an..."

"Dread is an old faithful enemy, always there when I'm losing my mind. Steps over and right into me, salting wounds, and disclosing, every bitter lie. Impending doom I know so well, almost an old frien..."

"Dont worry I tasted the pain, I didn't know, I could go insane. Dont ever leave me and tell me it's real, don't ever lie again, or say how it heals. as it hurts you. know for a moment, how i feel. You..."

"searing, seething, writhing, laughing, into my soul, into my soul..... rearing morbid children, dismiss them, dismiss them, into the world of the seekers, always searching, and digging, with an axe ha..."

"I thought, with my condo and I, that everything'd be all right. I still hate this place, i still hate my face, I still can't be free from the lies, fears disguise, revise and revise, but everything, e..."