SweetSadness86

"It feels like a dream now, Those few stolen hours of life for living. I want to see you again The way you were when I first saw you Standing there, with your ironic smile, Bad posture and black leathe..."

"There is death here.  A misunderstanding, a fork in the road,  Where I turned away from life in unyielding bitterness.  The tears I have shed are crystallized,  They shatter now,  Shards cutting merci..."

"This somber silenceIs as loud as your yelling of before.I hear everything you do not say.You have said it all before.The words echo in my mind,Leaving scars on my heart,Bringing tears to my eyes.At th..."

"The rain that falls Is like tears from the skies, or Like the tears in my eyes. It falls to the parched ground, Nourishment for the earth, Nourishment for the soul. And I wonder, As my tears continue ..."

"You painted me in lies, Made them part of me. You only really saw What you wanted me to be that I am not. All you ever gave me was your name. I don't know who I am or who to blame. There's nothing lef..."

"I cry, sometimes at night, I cry too often now. I see you in my mind, But you never make a sound. For something to hold on to, I'd give up anything. But I'm so sick of waiting for What tomorrow neve..."

"I remember When we would laugh Untainted, Undaunted, We were happiness embodied, In the midst of silent desperation. Just the four of us, My sweetest friends, Against the world. I remember When I fe..."

"Soul scars cannot dissapear The names etched onto my heart Everything is gone from here My innocence in shards Another peice of me that was you Another best friend who I never really knew Another rea..."

"what happened to my faith gone like dust in the wind the moment that came over me defiance washes away all sins love lost and love borne a fleeting moment so forlorn so quiet in my madness? i ..."

"I never wanted this to end So silently, or So quickly. I wanted a long goodbye, To see your tears, For you to say what I've always wanted to hear, For an eruption of words. The wordsthat never came, ..."

"Tears for father, tears for mother, Tears for sister, tears for brother. There was nothing left to lose Until she came along. Torn from the ones I loved, I was lost at sea, adrift in tears, Resigne..."

"If I only had the means I would lock up these troubled screams That tumble from my mouth, Agonizing, Tantalizing. I would take this mental vertigo Seal it up in a box, Padlock my disease in a safe, ..."

"A communal mood Of ever-growing anger As all over America Dark brows lower, faces florid with Confusion and bewilderment As pain rains from the skies. Grown men and women jump from 40 story high windo..."

"Mother, Sometimes I think That I could return to you, The comfort of your womb, Days without tears, Growth with your promise of Warm childhood years, Now lost. Father, Sometimes I think That I could ..."

"feelings are like a river too many all the time crashing against the sand of my conciousness huge and furious and beautiful made up of rain and the sea foaming waters and salty tears glorious sorr..."

"What if this is joy I'm feeling What if you're mistaken Sensations leave my body reeling As my skin is breaking Everyone I've cared about Has left me somehow in the end Conciousness weaving in and ou..."

"infectious laughter comfortable silences conversation between us needs none of the words that drop like pearls from our lips. we speak at the same time the same thoughts and marvel at our telepathy. W..."

"Would you like me better if I read the Wall St. Journal? Would you like me better if I were Daddy's little girl? Would you like me better if I gave you free reign over all? Stop trying to make me your..."

"i wish i were like you stainless steel forever untouched but never unreal Written December 3rd, 2001 © on Dec 03 2001 08:42 AM PST   10 • 0"

"i lost my chance to find myself that dying spark into the wind i was looking for a better haven large enough to house my sins i am just an empty glass jar transparent as the air you breathe i know you..."

"as a young child i cried because i had not the beauty that she had i was inadequate because i am not blonde in the fifth grade i realized that i am not really here-- i am a doll in a beautiful person'..."

"Oh, but my aura has borne so many wounds! The intoxication of love, the acid of hate The rape of a soul, the absence of fate. I have climbed, desperate, ever higher on life's ladder To find something ..."

"I am a jasmine, blooming in the darkness. I am the desert rose, the pride amongst the briars. I am the oleander, my poison is your grief. Cause my wounds, I dare thee, strike off my flesh and see! I ..."

"the other day i looked outside and i saw the sun and i turned away i am in love with my sadness, my pain, my end that will come and make you love me again today i do not look outside i am trapped insi..."

"another black december, come to haunt me, these feelings from which i would run, which i would ban the tears, returned for one last stand until i fall, they'll hunt me still that screaming specter, l..."

"when did this begin? suddenly aware, i feel for my wounds and find them healing, for the moment. then i, incensed, resolve to heal, for a brand new god. when did this begin? nothing new, this emp..."

"It's my problem, it's your fault It's all relative now And I feel there's no way out I want to run but don't know how How did I get so sick and tired Even though it's nothing new Yes, of course I am a..."

"I'll thank you not to heal me I am nothing but my wounds I'll never give up my scars They're all I have to hold onto I don't know where I'm going So don't try to guide me home I'd rather hold it all i..."

"I am as  young butterfly Newly emerging from a thick cocoon With dreams of flight above the horizons Yet unable to spread mt wings This first time... Therefore, never shall I fly Written December 28th..."

"Don't want to lose your identity You know you're halfway gone And that you're never happy Unless you're doing something wrong The risks you take amuse you Because they let you lose yourself To the pe..."

"You Don't care if I'm crying These truths you keep denying Someday you'll be burning You will comprehend The things you've put me through The love that was untrue Knowing that I can never let it show ..."

"Under a sky made of ash And my head in the clouds I ran around screaming About brussel sprouts And I just didn't care I just didn't know That the ash was dirt And The clouds were snow So I froze my e..."

"Pick me a pretty flower A black rose to match my soul A freesia for a lover lost An iris to die in a vase All my pretty dead things All standing in a row All my wilted children We have no place to go..."

"You besiege me with commands You don't care how I feel With your cold and ruthless hands Only pain is real "Go make me some dinner, honey Go find me some beer and the remote Go get me something with ..."

"my lethe, you are that river from which i drink, inside this lovely hell your cool waters remind me to breathe cleansing away the pain my lethe, you are the river in this foriegn land solid and etern..."

"First thing in the morning Their yelling hits my ears Cursing, angry, shrill They're debating over what to eat Every whisper is a dagger, Every embrace I don't recieve He upturns the table in his rag..."

"Another day The air is thick with Animosity, pain The tears of a child She glares, resentful She picks at her food The silence is so loud I heard everything they didn't say Dad hates Mom Mom hates D..."

"It's around 3pm, she wakes up Feels half dead, but hey, that's life Does a line, then does her makeup Wishing she'd died in the night Miniskirts, black fishnet stockings These are the paints that she..."

"The haze is everywhere Opaque smoke that covers the city Fog invades every car window And casts a pall over the neon light My thoughts are far away In a place where it is always raining And I am a pal..."

"Never bothered to ask me Just why am I so silent A shadow in a corner A warm body I've been waving red flags I've shot up my last flare Your eyes are still fixed on the TV Never bothered to ask me J..."

"how long is the road from here to oblivion where i've been hiding waiting for you to awaken you tell me about your god the ultimate sacrifice, the ultimate sacrifice? a son? while orphans die in the..."

"from the corner of my eyes, i see life rushing past, a mile a minute trampling the ones left behind. fifteen years i have been fifteen years i have seen false beauty triumphs always, while the glow of..."

"In my brain, a nursery I shush my fears with wet kisses A cotton candy world. In my head, a petting zoo A million people in and out My soul needs a "Do Not Touch" sign My inner child is forty five. ..."

"I used to be your starry sky Your little girl who you adored You used to know I was alive Child of your seed who never cried Once upon a time you would love To tell me I was beautiful I turned 13, you..."

"She went through life a mile a minute Tasting the world like she had just been born She ran into a heart-hardened glass wall And came to see it as reality She beat her fists against the glass Till it..."

"make way for the crying child pat me on the back, hand me your false sympathy make up for all i lack a parade of broken children marching through the jagged days watching me with buring eyes b..."

"life was a black hole sucking me in raping me of dignity... then robbing me of faith when your face is full of scar tissue and the tears are stinging your cheeks it's hard to feel pretty so i let m..."

"I stand still, though life has forsaken me Pondering the next step I might take I wonder where these roads will lead me If sorrow will ever be in my wake Naked, as the world would strip me bare Once..."

"a spell of autumn and spring cast upon the frigid darkness of the world, the eternal flame of this purgatory, life... see the child who cries sparkling diamonds? jewels and pearls fall from her lips..."

"Sometimes I think that My city is beautiful... Grey blue of the sky. Rain, rare, exotic Air heavy with misty breath Wind singing of free Spirits, roaming, watching A poet with her pen, as She tell..."

"broken promises empty, greet my SOS dim my only flare his hand extended an endless sea can't drown out the sound of his voice we two survivors tell our sad stories and hope someone might end thempon..."

"Affection casts an electric light To electrocute my angst [Drown me kindly inside brown eyes] Psychoanalyze my love, Take my sad thoughts and burn them To ashes, rip me to shreds Until you can love m..."

"i am watching as you aim poisoned arrows through my heart in your sleep, unerringly hitting the target. i am sitting about with my tears crashing from my eyes the end of an era if you leave me now ..."

"She opens up my lovely cage Tells me that I am free She throws me to the howling wind A caged bird with clipped wings Someday I would like to know That knowledge love will bring Someday I wo..."

"empty words tumble from my lips... salty tears fall, always falling... the excretement of a heart overful. cut open the veins that hold this lie... life? just another long, winding road... where is..."

"like a leach or a vampire i feast upon the love of another bend you to my will so i can triumphantly reject you and lift myself up... to stare down at you so you will make me feel pretty twist the bea..."

"The soapy smell of Lysol Permeating the air My cough is smothered by a tissue. A doctor gives me a heart with his stethescope. When I was a child I loved the hospital. Buxom nurses in pastels A shot i..."

"I do not believe In so much anymore. What if this were all in my head? I cannot conceive of Spending hours on the phone. Another voice inside's the last thing I need. I do not believe in movies That f..."

"valiant, warrior of all that is almost unreal haven't you learned that nothing is fair? she watches hours of Disney but can't understand Why no one is really like the Even Stevens Haven't you lear..."

"I wished upon a plastic star As far from God as God was far Looked for something unpleasant to dwell on To pass the days that were already gone I'm knee deep in lies that I told myself Sinking inside ..."