bonnie blue

"for my daughter I held you as you drew your first breaths, Pushed gasping, wailing from within me, emerging bottom first; with Pale shell pink, silken, tiny spindling fingers with ten perfect nails;..."

"Love lives here, and I am blessed by it, In these pathways, where so many hearts Beat and intertwine, engaging with others; Learning of love and pain… Desire and dreams… Hate and anguish; Commonalitie..."

"Precious, this… Chance meeting across ether… Spinning smiles and conversation Shyly at first, then more boldly Asking questions just to see the answers Wondering always What each other’s expression mi..."

"A good day, this day… Filled with friends and poetry (my favorite obsessions;) gleaning treasures from out the accumulated debris of words.  Holding each one up to the light, peering closely at it, de..."

"Damned little points And acute inner angles A shape that can take us To the heavens Or cast our soul to the depths Beneath earth We crave them secretly Denying all the while Why we do, and yet The ne..."

"Call me a fool, for I still miss you; Touching your  heart Filled mine with such joy… Now, more than a corner of it Lies empty and aching, Occupied only by lonely tears. Perhaps I should not miss you ..."

"Where have you been? I looked for you everywhere The last time I saw you, But your eyes were turned inward, And you did not see me. Where were you then? What happened there? Your hands were never stil..."

"Parallels keep running through my life, And I ask why?  Why does this question Appear again… and again? Why are there so many coincidences that beg acknowledgement, yet Aspire to be more than coincid..."

"Wretched is lonely Pain on a pin Sticking in heart Holes leaking blood Drips to floor Of soul there puddling Tears add to pain Sobs bring agony Tearing and ripping Screams from throat Touch me touch m..."

"Twirl me up like spaghetti On your fork of desire Gather me into your mouth And chew me gently Massage me with warm oil Of your wanting Season me with sav’ry herbs And breathe me in Garnish me with ..."

"I don’t understand: Why did you say that? What signal did I give Without knowing I had? Was I smiling too much? Oozing innuendo Through the screen? I am flustered, unsure How to react to you, For I li..."

"Some days are so easy, passing by with barely a ripple. Everything goes smoothly; I’m surrounded by smiles, love and laughter; and then there are days like today, when clouds hang overhead; when I fee..."

"If night be soft Dark upon the land, If sleep comes not To your lost lonely soul, Ply the night with these Whispered melodies, Hauntingly keening The tune of your longing; Drive bittered teardrops to ..."

"~ Just One Wish ~ ~ on this birthday ~ If I had one wish today, love… It would be to receive your smile; To feel the love from deep in your heart, Surround me and hold me safe and close, And let no ..."

"I try not to let my heart beat too fast When your words grip my heart so tightly That it feels they will pull it free of my chest… I try to be calm, unheeding of the way You glance my way, pretending..."

"Your mind                 Skips all over the galaxy                                 Delighting me…amazing me E x p a n  d    i    n    g [My boundaries] Of  *knowing* It is enough to know to..."

"I felt badly today I told you an untruth (I cannot even bring myself to say a lie) It was not the first what I am  holding back is not huge ‘twas a small thing, really I just did not want to deal wi..."

"Is this for real? Am I only wishing? Pretending you love me, And hoping for the impossible? My heart is waiting Waiting for your touch Waiting to breathe again If only you love me… I hear you whisper ..."

"Judge me not So harshly that You forget We are all human… Chain me not Take not my wings You and I are Not so different… Break not my heart In careless passion Turn it not To lifeless stone… Pity ..."

"I’m so tired of being wrong Of being foolish Of wanting too much I’m tired of people I think are my friends Turning on me when I need them I’m tired of having my psyche analyzed And spit back in my fa..."

"It wasn’t me It never was All this time I’ve been living A fantasy You played along Till it suited you not to And let me just Crash and burn No explanation ---not an honest one--- instead of telling m..."

"Tumble down a long flight of stairs Into depression; here I am again. Black tunnel.  No light. No end anywhere in sight. No hand held out to guide me. No voice to comfort me. No end to this bleeding N..."

"Remove this tumor This strangle of pain That chokes my breath And makes me wish for death An end to sorrow I’ve tried to live with it But it demands too much of me Pluck out this stone This ruddy boul..."

"I cried alone For wanting For connections lost For those never quite made My tears fell unremarked Seen nor felt By no one. I cried alone For missing you For smiles of irony For  warm embraces All th..."

"Today the calm Returns to reclaim me; I am grateful to soak it up Into every pore of my being. A fleet glimpse of tranquility …mid torrent… it was more than I’d hoped for. Outside my window, Pale for..."

"God spoke, And I listened and heard… His voice reached me through an online friend, making a suggestion that changed my life beyond imagination. An invitation to read his work turned me ..."

"Begun at center Was I ever? No. Wind me up you the master of this puppet’s inner machinery tighten the spring strengthen my spine resolve my void pull me back higher: test my fear don’t let me hide..."

"Another slap to my psyche. Your tenderness shown, But not to me. Never again to me. Love is double-bladed: Joy on one edge, Intensity so astonishing, Bitter regret and Anguish on the other. When wil..."

"Have I told you lately How much I hate you? Even your memory Blinds me with rage. I hate how you manipulated me And twisted my ego Till there was nothing left To defend myself with. I resent ..."

"I’ve read too many posts lately With titles like”last post” And “not a poem” Well I am ANGRY now How DARE one single person here Have the unmitigated AUDACITY To judge the work of a poet’s pain ---the..."

"Spirit take me To wander sky Cloudtop Starshine Light falls Darkness Deep Infinitely blue Reigns. I am time: Creeping across life; Inching forward Sometimes lurching Never a surety. Ci..."

"Majestic floating mountain Amputated from your glacial home And set on a journey Propelled by ancient current of ocean You are but a fragment Of history’s times frozen And bound in ice; Eons fr..."

"Just a touch from your hand sears me with desire so strong that I may die In your arms I feel no hesitation at all I give myself completely to you open laid bare Handle me with care tenderly my hear..."

"A deep pang just surprised my heart a knife thrust in clean unexpectedly Withdrawn with the blood of my love still upon it I remember your sweetness and how you made me feel light giddy warm elated ..."

"I like my coffee sweet In fact I like lots of things sweet To my detriment Says my doctor I tell her My mission is to live Happily If possible Yours is to keep me alive To do that She shakes her head ..."

"I hurt someone today By things I said: Lack of judgement on my part; Trying to care, and Missing the mark; Letting my ego get in the way, Misunderstanding his intentions, And causing more pain. These..."

"I shall sleep…in time, When this warmth fades away… This desire has taken me Into a place where fantasy lives and plays… my composure has disintegrated, utterly evaporated… but you know that, don’t y..."

"Gather me in Make me warm And safe I need a cocoon To conceal and protect me Allow me room To grow wings To fly with you To heights unexplored Feelings untouched yet I ask you to be Open As no other h..."

"I am perplexed by the notion That love in its pain is all the more precious For the stone it places in a sad heart. I am perplexed at the idea That hatred can grow so rampantly In the human soul, whe..."

"Come to the table Eat, and be filled Drink, slake your thirst This is the table Of humanity’s last supper Our last chance ~the last resort~ On the highway of life. No reservations are needed Only com..."

"The demon is come. It creeps boldly in, Brazenly showing itself Just enough to be seen Out of corners of eyes. It touches things And leaves a mark, An indelible stain: Putrefaction. Madness. Watch cl..."

"I never learned love, Until you touched me, Took my heart With your smile, So radiantly caring. I lacked, though I knew not what Or why. I stumbled from heartache To heartbreak, blindly Searching in ..."

"Tears, my love… I have cried so many. Heart heavy with sorrow, Seeing only empty tomorrows. A life without you in it Felt like no life at all. The silence stood between us Like a steel door. Cold.  Lo..."

"Let the words come Let the spirit rejoice Let the day begin Let me have peace Let  my feelings show Let my heart be free Let my mind be open Let me reach my potential Let me understand Let me have wis..."

"Quietly now… Don’t break This peace, This crystalline moment In time and space, Where I can See you In my mind’s eye… Sleeping… Dreaming… Hopefully of me… Rest, my love. Tomorrow, the world Reclaims ..."